I don’t like birthdays. I never really have. Diego tries really hard to make me like them. He does this gift a day for the week thing. He is so sweet. He plans it out and is so thoughtful. No one has ever done something like that for me. Still, I am getting old and feeling it. I think this birthday is hard because I am so in limbo. Am I writer or am I not? I feel like the proposals I have had sort of determine that. It’s now or never is how I feel because of all kinds of reasons. Do I get a job or keep writing? I’ll have to decide soon. I can’t go into another new year without taking a full fledged job again. Deep down I know once I do that its all over. I do everything with such a charge forward attitidue. I just got offered an executive level job yesterday and turned it down. Money made it tempting but this is about the dream. And I want my kids to feel dreams can really happen. If you work for them. Healer is out next week. Woohoo! Glad for that. I love this book. I hope others will. I think its more my new voice. If everyone doesn’t love it, ouch lol..See the pressure I am putting on myself right now? BOO! I know, shut up LISA! GRIN…..Imagine how those living with me must feel! Angel season five. We are watching it and dreading the last episode. Diego and I love it. We work out everynight and then eat dinner watching ANGEL…..No more Angel soon. What will we do? Maybe Charmed? I wonder if its good? hmmm…

That is what I should be doing lol. I have a great story I started but I have hardly slept for days and my eyes are tired. I hate insomnia. I get it anytime I am stressed. Waiting to hear back on the proposals on editors desk has me in major stress mode. My agent returned home from a couple conferences and said she had some positive feeback and to stay ‘inspired’. It was a nice email at a great time. I needed the boost. Now, back to writing. It’s a sexy - no very hot - thriller. Not your average suspense because its so erotic. This will go to my agent. I’ll post some clips from it when its shipped off. I got to talk to one of my favorite authors on the phone today. Vivi Anna. She is a characer and has some hot stuff pending. Good news soon form her I think!!! Anyway, I just downed a large white mocha and will now try to write!!! Cheers!!

The 25th I will be hosting at Ellora’s Cave chatlist! To celebrate healer releasing the 27th the theme will be ’sexual healing’! Come play!

Well today my agent returns from several conferences. I am nervous because I know when she arrives back there is a chance I will have good or bad news of my submissions. I haven’t written much the past few days. I don’t know if its because I wrote so much for a month without a break or if I am just nervous. I got the bug to get back at it today though. So….off to write. Oh, a friend of mine just signed a 3 book deal. Another just signed with an agent. They haven’t told yet so I won’t say who but congrats ladies!