chapterS one-THREE of savage hunger
CHAPTER ONE
Savage
Present day—New York City
Tequila is the Mexican version of the middle finger, the perfect “fuck you” to someone you either can’t kill or haven’t decided to kill yet. It’s liquid foreplay.
Exactly why I lift my shot glass at Adam, one of the two Walker Security compadres at the table with me, and down the booze, a wicked bite following.
“Sorry bastard,” I murmur because he just took my money in a card game in the backroom of a New York City bar a few blocks from the Walker offices.
“Took my money, too.” Smith, the other of the two Walker compadres, grimaces, tossing back his shot glass as well with a grimace. “Fuck, that burns.” He runs a hand through his sandy brown hair, leaving it a rumpled mess. “Fuck.”
I laugh a mocking laugh. “Little bitch-ass Army Ranger,” I say, motioning to his hand. “Do you get pedicures, man? Because those are some soft hands you got there. A pussy’s hands.”
He snorts. “All you Green Berets do is blow shit up.”
“Nah,” I say, tracing my goatee and considering his level of stupidity, which is high. I drop my hands to the table and give in to the need to school this fool. “A Beret reckons himself a charmer,” I explain. “He convinces people like you to blow stuff up while he watches.”
Smith barks out a laugh. “You’re a charmer? Give me a fucking break.”
I lean forward and give him the cobra stare. The one I use right before I kill some asshole. “That’s why I left. I like to do the killing myself. Could be you I decide to kill one day.”
He laughs again and tosses popcorn in my face. “Bring it.”
“And here we have the reason you both just paid me,” Adam says, scooping up the pool of money. “You were both running your mouths and not paying attention.”
“How about I come over there and shut your mouth?” I taunt, refilling my shot glass. “Then we’ll see how Mr. SEAL Team Six does against a mercenary.”
Adam’s lips quirk and he leans forward, too—a big motherfucker, tall and broad, his dark hair a typical curling, wild mess. “We’re all mercenaries now,” he claims. “We work for profit.”
“Not the way I did before I came here, and you know it.” I run a finger down the scar on my cheek. “This only made me more of a bastard.” I down another shot of tequila, feeling the booze when the new waitress heads our direction. She’s a pretty little thing, a brunette who favors the only perfect woman I’ve ever known. A resemblance that might just require the entire bottle of tequila find its way to my belly. As if trying to make sure that’s what happens, she kneels beside me and whispers, “A man who just handed me a hundred-dollar bill to request your presence is in the alleyway.”
The hair on my arms goes all prickly. “Name?”
“Tag.”
Iron Man might as well have punched me in the chest, but I don’t react. “Thanks, sweetheart,” I say. “Enjoy the money. You deserve it just for speaking to the prick.” I reach into my pocket and palm her another hundred. “Go now.”
“Thanks,” she says, scraping her teeth over her bottom lip, an invitation in her eyes that I have no intention of accepting. Anyone who reminds me of her is a no go for me.
The waitress stands up and I don’t watch her depart. I focus on Adam and Smith. “Count me out this hand,” I say, shrugging into the leather jacket at the back of my chair, remarkably sober considering my level of tequila intake.
“Where the hell are you going?” Adam asks, the card deck in hand. “I’m dealing.”
“I’ll return to win my money back in a few,” I say. “You better practice while you can.” I stand up, taking the Glock at my hip right along with the blade hidden inside my waistband for this reunion.
I walk toward the front of the familiar bar, where I’ve hung out hundreds of times in the past three years since I joined Walker Security. This place is my comfort zone, a place to relax, and because I know Tag far more than I wish I knew Tag, that is exactly why he chose it. With long, measured strides, I make my way to the front door, because fuck no, I’m not walking into an un-scouted alleyway with a bastard like Tag. I exit into a bitter November chill that has nothing on a winter I spent in Russia. Adrenaline and agitation pulse through me as I walk to the end of the street and around the corner to enter a narrow walkway side street.
I stop short to find Tag is waiting on me, exactly as I’d expected he would. “Knew you’d take the attack route.”
I step toe-to-toe with the brute of a man I once considered more a father than the bastard of a man I’d called father until I figured out I hated the fuck out of him. He’s older now, cigarettes and years in Afghanistan shriveling up his skin like a damn raisin. “What the hell are you doing here?” My voice is low, taut, a threat he won’t mistake as a greeting.
“Good to see you, too, Savage.”
“Fuck you, Tag. What the hell do you want?”
“I’m in deep shit. I need a tug out.”
“Whatever, man.” I turn to leave.
“You owe me. You know you fucking owe me.”
I stop dead in my tracks, grimacing with those words.
“I’ve never asked for payment. I’m demanding it now.”
I turn to face him. “You don’t demand shit of me, man. Fuck you. Get one of your boys on the payroll. They’re stuck suckling your tit. I’m not.”
“Someone burned me, betrayed me. There’s a hit out on me. I’m going underground until this is over. You’re the one I trust to handle this.”
“Handle this? Define that statement.”
“A job you’ll enjoy, I promise. I need you to hit the man who’s the mastermind.”
Trigger pulled. “I don’t hit,” I say. “Not anymore.” I turn to leave him, and this shit, behind for good.
“I have so many ways to burn you and you know it.”
Acid burns my chest and I stop walking, but I don’t turn and look at his ugly fucking face again.
“I wonder how your past affects the Walkers’ reputation,” he threatens softly and it is a threat.
My hand goes to my gun and I pull the fucking thing, turning to point it at Tag, who is pointing his own weapon at me. Piece of shit. “You don’t think I know you, Savage?” he challenges.
“You won’t kill me. You need me.”
“And you won’t kill me. You don’t want a mess to clean up.” He holsters his weapon. “You owe me.”
“To think I once respected you.” I holster my weapon, aware as he is aware that a debt between mercenaries is a blood oath. The price of betraying that oath is not pleasant. “I don’t do threats,” I say. “I will, however, honor the favor owed. If I have the facts and feel good about the job. The end. My debt will then be paid. And if you come to me after it’s paid, I will shoot you. Start talking.”
“You know how this works. We protect the integrity of the mission. We cut off a leak at the knees. You go where I send you and await instructions.”
He reaches into his jacket and pulls out an envelope that he hands me. “Your mission, should you so choose to take it.” With that, he steps around me.
I rotate to speak to his back. “To think I used to respect you.”
He glances over his shoulder at me. “I don’t give a fuck if you respect me. An oath is an oath.” He disappears around the corner and I stand there, fingers curled in my palms for one reason: if I move, I will kill him. I shove the envelope into my pocket and glance skyward, the dark, starless night a perfect match for my return to that man’s world. I can’t put off reading my instructions and even if I could, this needs to be behind me.
I yank it from my pocket again and open it to remove the white card inside with only one word, one place, the place I swore I’d never return: San Antonio.
“Damn it to hell,” I growl, squeezing my eyes shut, the torment on Candace’s face when I told her I was leaving gutting me in ten different directions.
I ball up the paper, tossing it against the wall.
A movement behind me sets me off and I whirl around, grab the asshole sneaking up on me, and shove him against the wall.
“Holy hell, Savage,” Adam growls. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
“Why the hell are you ghosting me?”
“I know you, man. I knew there was trouble. And I saw who you were talking to. He’s that piece of shit you were working for when we met, beneath you a hundred feet. Whatever he wants, you’re saying no.”
“You don’t make that decision.” I release him and step back, scrubbing my jaw. “I’m off the books for a couple of weeks.” I rotate away from him and exit the alleyway.
I’ve made it three steps when he’s by my side. “San Antonio? You’ve got to be kidding me, man. I know what that place is to you.”
“You don’t know shit.”
“Candace. Your father.”
I stop walking and turn on him. “How do you know about Candace?”
“Vodka, man. I told you to stop drinking it. You forget when you drink vodka.”
“I don’t talk about Candace.”
“Yeah, man. On at least three occasions. Which says a hell of a lot about why you’re single.”
“You’re single, too, you prick.”
“Your point? Never mind. My point—”
“Unless it involves more tequila, I don’t care.” I turn and start walking. He falls into step with me. He’s pissing me off. “Get out of my face, man. I’m a live wire right now, and it has nothing to do with you. Don’t make it about you.”
“Punch me, asshole. Whatever. You go to San Antonio working for that asshole, I go with you.”
I flag down a cab, and when it screeches to the corner, I climb inside. Adam follows. “Airport,” I order.
The driver guns the engine. I open my door and tumble out onto the road, leaving Adam prisoner to speed. I’m on my feet and down a side street, fast-tracking into a subway tunnel before he can recover. Once I’m on a train, it’s done. Adam is out of the picture. I just saved him from putting himself on Tag’s radar. The way I tried to save Candace from me. And yet, here I am, on my way to San Antonio, and if Tag even thinks about involving her in this, I won’t just kill that little prick. I’ll make him suffer.
SAVAGE AND CANDACE: THE PAST, THE BEGINNING
CHAPTER TWO
Candace
Ten years ago—San Antonio, Texas
The rain cloaks the roadway, an unyielding curtain blinding my vision. This was not what I had in mind when I left my empty little cottage in Alamo Heights to head to my favorite late-night study spot. I wanted to snap out of my blurry-eyed haze and just finish the design work I’m doing for my internship, not die when my car careens into the ditch. I’m blessed to have acclaimed architect Wesley Miller mentor me, and I’m determined to prove it has nothing to do with his brother working underneath my father’s military command. I’m going to earn this. I’m going to make my parents, and myself, proud of my work.
I just—I can’t be home right now without thinking about my mom. Not when my home was inherited from my grandmother two years ago, and now my mom is gone, too. And of course, my father deploys to Iraq next week. I just need noise around me, anything that keeps me focused on it and my studies.
Thankfully, my destination, a place called Halcyon, where coffee and spirits are available until two AM, is a mere one block down. I hope. I think. It’s hard to tell right now. Peering through the darkness, I cruise by the driveway and make a quick turn into the parking lot. Thunder erupts overhead, jolting me, but I remain focused on my goal: parking and just getting into the warm, dry building. Considering the sea of cars present, all of which are all but floating, I’m shocked to eye a few open spots near the door.
Luckily, I whip into the great spot and kill the engine. I glance at the clock and eye the ten o’clock hour. I have four hours to caffeinate and stuff my face with a piece of chocolate ganache cake. I deserve it for surviving this past month. I won’t sleep much if I stay until closing, but I wouldn’t sleep anyway. A man rushes from the front door of the coffee bar and hurries to the vehicle next to me, wasting no time speeding away. Considering the rain has now become a monsoon, that works for me. I grab my umbrella and shove the door open wide, giving myself room to open it, grab my briefcase, that doubles as a purse, and step out into the storm.
In a rush of shutting the door of my Ford Focus and locking up, I finally step inside the warehouse-style operation, with high ceilings and two levels. I set my umbrella by the door and maneuver through the clusters of wood and steel chairs, with random cushy chairs here and there as well. I place my order, scanning to find one spot, one last table by a window where I can keep an eye on the storm. Claiming the small table, I reach in my bag for my drafting pad and grimace. It’s not here. Please tell me it’s in the car. I grab my wallet and stuff it in my pocket, along with my keys, leaving my bag to hold the table.
Hurrying back outside, I’m relieved to find the rain has slowed to a light drizzle, though I don’t trust that it will last. I pull up my hood, rushing outside to watch an SUV park so close that I can’t even get into my car. The asshole opens his door and I’ve had my limit. I charge toward him and by the time he’s standing I’m on his side of his door with him.
I don’t even care that he’s taller than any man I’ve ever actually stood this close to and as broad as the doorway. I’m pissed. I’m hurt. I need an outlet and he just made himself that outlet. “What are you doing?” I demand.
He yanks down his hood, displaying a handsome, sculpted face, with dark hair mussed up in that “finger fucked by some gorgeous woman” kind of way.
“Staring at a pretty lady, it seems,” he says, his voice a low, whiskey-roughened rasp, and yet somehow as deep and big as the man.
I ignore the compliment and the purr of my body, a reaction that I attribute, not to his degree of hotness, which is scorching, but to my lack of male companionship in far too long. “I can’t get into my car. You parked on top of me.”
“You parked over the line and I didn’t want to get my pretty little head all wet.”
“I didn’t park over the line.”
“You did,” he assures me. “Go look.” He motions toward my car. “I’ll wait here.”
“I’m not going to look. You have to move. I can’t open my door.”
He crosses his arms over his impressively broad chest and peers at me from under dark, intense brows. “What are you going to give me if I do?”
“How about I save your manhood from my knee?”
He laughs, a masculine rough laugh that may as well be bedroom talk for the way my nipples respond. Good Lord, what is wrong with me? I don’t know this man. I do not want to know this man. My nipples do not get to know this man. “How about,” his gaze lowers to my mouth, lingers there and lifts, “you have coffee,” he pauses for effect, “with me.”
My stomach does a little flutter that I shove away, replacing it with a far more appropriate response: disbelief. “Are you seriously bribing me for entry into my own vehicle?”
Thunder roars above us and the rain begins to plummet down again. To my shock, he catches my hand and suddenly I’m pressed to his hard body, his hands on my waist. My senses blaze in a wildfire of reactions, and just that quickly, he’s lifted me into his vehicle, out of the rain. Instinct has me scooting to the passenger door, which is of course, right on top of my car door. I couldn’t escape if I wanted to, and suddenly, he’s inside the cabin with me, shutting the door.
CHAPTER THREE
Candace
“What are you doing?” I demand indignantly, my heart beating like a hammer in my chest. “You can’t grab me and throw me in your vehicle.”
He turns to face me, the small cabin made smaller by the massive size of this man. He’s just so big and close, so very close and I can smell his cologne, something woodsy with a hint of amber. My senses are on fire. Wild fire. I can’t think straight. “I was saving you, woman,” he replies. “It’s a mad downpour out there. But if you want me to let you out, I will.”
Thunder crashes again and I jump, eyes squeezing shut a moment, then lifting to find him staring at me. “Well?” he challenges softly.
Well indeed, I think. How did I end up in a vehicle, in a storm with the hottest man I’ve ever seen?
“You’re still an asshole.”
“Does that mean the fair maiden wishes to remain in the shelter of my fine vehicle?”
“I should be afraid of you right now.”
He arches one of those dark brows again. Why do I think his brows are sexy? Brows are not sexy. “Are you?” he challenges.
I blink. “Am I what?”
“Afraid of me,” he supplies.
Oh, that. His brows distracted me. “I should be,” I repeat.
“Why are you out at this time of night alone?”
“Why are you?” I clap back.
“Why not? Who do you think a bad guy would attack? You or me?”
“Depends on which one of us has the biggest gun.”
He laughs that hell of a sexy laugh again that my nipples still find a bit too sexy. “Do you carry?” he asks.
“Yes. And I know how to use it,” I add, because I do. Of course, my gun is not present on my person, but I don’t point that out.
“You’re a fierce one,” he comments.
“You’re an arrogant one,” I say in rebuttal.
“I’m not arrogant,” he says, his energy darkening, his mood a swift, stormy shift. “A smart-ass, yes. Arrogant, no.”
“Parking too close to me wasn’t you being arrogant? Just a smart-ass?”
“Yep.” He grins in my direction, his mood drastically altered. “How’d I do?”
“Perfectly.”
“Glad to hear it,” he says. “I’m Rick Savage, by the way, but most people call me Savage.”
“They call you Savage? Are you supposed to be making me feel better?”
“Savage can have many meanings, sweetheart,” he murmurs, his voice low, suggestive, and the obvious insinuation that he’s a savage in bed has my cheeks heating.
He chuckles. “Shy, are you?”
“I’m—not actually. Not really.”
“You did come at me like a freight train, I’ll give you that. Call me Rick.” He offers me his hand, a strong hand that I’m now imagining on my body again, but this time in the most savage of ways. God. I don’t know this man and I’m fantasizing about him.
I steel myself for the impact of touching him and press my palm to his. Heat rushes up my arm and my gaze shoots to his. “Candace Marks,” I say softly, but when I try to pull back, he holds onto my hand.
“Nice to meet you, Candace,” he says softly, his eyes warm on my hot cheeks.
“I’m not sure if it’s nice to meet you or not yet, Rick.”
His lips curve and I find myself thinking about that kiss, about his mouth on my mouth. I tug at my hand and reluctantly, it seems, he releases me, or perhaps it’s me who didn’t really want him to actually let go. Until now, until this night and my encounter with Rick Savage, I didn’t realize how much I just need to be touched. Afraid I’m transparently desperate, I turn away from him, watching as rain transforms to hail plunking on the window. “What brings you here so late and in a storm?” he asks.
I shift to face him again, happy to be back on safe territory. “School and work.”
“What are you studying and/or working on?”
“Architecture. I’m interning right now under a rather famous architect. It’s a bit intimidating, but exciting.”
“Interesting choice of career. What do you want to build?”
“Everything. I have so many dreams. The tallest building in the world that reaches well into the clouds. The most unique building in the world. The most secure building in the world. The most impressive homes on planet Earth.”
“That’s what I call passion. Are you following in someone’s footsteps?”
“No. I think it started with a fascination with the pyramids and morphed into architecture. What about you? Why are you here late at night?”
“Med school. I’m a surgical resident at Fort Sam where my father’s an instructor.”
“Impressive. It is, after all, considered the most important military medical training facility in the world. My father’s at Fort Sam, too, but he’s not part of the medical division. He’s the commander for the North. Are you military?”
“I am, in fact, military.”
“Our fathers might know each other.”
He gives a nod. “I’m certain they must.”
“I thought soldiers were pack animals and yet you’re here, alone. It’s dangerous out alone, you know,” I tease.
He doesn’t laugh. He cuts his stare and grabs the steering wheel, his powerful forearm flexing with the tightness of his grip. “Sometimes alone isn’t the best place to be.” He looks at me, his eyes swimming with something I can only call dark and damaged before he asks, “Now is it?”
I don’t know if he intends for me to actually answer that question, but I do. “No,” I say. “No, it’s not.” And then before I can stop myself, I add, “Especially not tonight.” A confession, perhaps inspired by the hint of understanding between us that I believe he’s trying to confirm.
“Why not tonight?” he asks.
“You don’t know me. You don’t need to pretend to care.”
“I don’t pretend. Ever. And as for barely knowing each other, we are the freest we will ever be together. You don’t have to choose to see me again. You don’t have to think about the mistakes we’ve made together. You don’t have to do anything, including answering my question.” And yet he asks again, “Why not tonight?” he repeats.
I exhale a shaky breath, my fingers twisting in my lap, my gaze shifting forward to the window drizzled with rain. The storm outside has calmed, but the one inside me has not. “My mom died last month. My dad is deploying to Iraq next week.” I glance over at Rick. “If that’s not enough, I live in a house I inherited from my dead grandmother who I loved very much.”
“Do you have a boyfriend, Candace?”
“No. I mean, I did, but it wasn’t serious. He was military and a little too busy trying to impress my father for me to feel like anything was about me. What about you?”
“No one.”
No one.
There is something hollow in the way he says this that only drives me to want to know more. Turning his prior question, back on him, I ask, “Why are you here alone, Rick Savage?”
He fixes me in a deep blue stare, and I swear I’m drifting in a sea of this man’s making. “To meet you. I just didn’t know it yet.”
The rain explodes around us again, an eternal roughening of the windows that only Texas does with such force. Thunder erupts with it, lightning in the distance, and I don’t know who moves first. Him or me. Suddenly though we’re in the middle of the seat and his fingers are tangling all rough and wonderfully in my hair, his mouth lowering to mine. “I’m going to kiss you now, unless you object,” he says.
“Kiss me already, Savage.”
“Rick. Call me Rick.” And then his lips collide with my lips, his tongue a deep stroke of pure heat that has me moaning with the rush of sensation that assaults my body in the best of ways.
My arms slide around his muscular back, body pressing against his body, the hard lines of this incredible man absorbing more than the softer part of me. That need to be touched explodes inside me, demanding satisfaction. He pulls back and stares down at me. “Do you want to get out of here? Together?”
I tell myself this is crazy, insane, wildly out of my character. “I don’t do things like this. Ever.”
He kisses me again and leaves me breathless. “Then make me the first.”
Savage
Present day—New York City
Tequila is the Mexican version of the middle finger, the perfect “fuck you” to someone you either can’t kill or haven’t decided to kill yet. It’s liquid foreplay.
Exactly why I lift my shot glass at Adam, one of the two Walker Security compadres at the table with me, and down the booze, a wicked bite following.
“Sorry bastard,” I murmur because he just took my money in a card game in the backroom of a New York City bar a few blocks from the Walker offices.
“Took my money, too.” Smith, the other of the two Walker compadres, grimaces, tossing back his shot glass as well with a grimace. “Fuck, that burns.” He runs a hand through his sandy brown hair, leaving it a rumpled mess. “Fuck.”
I laugh a mocking laugh. “Little bitch-ass Army Ranger,” I say, motioning to his hand. “Do you get pedicures, man? Because those are some soft hands you got there. A pussy’s hands.”
He snorts. “All you Green Berets do is blow shit up.”
“Nah,” I say, tracing my goatee and considering his level of stupidity, which is high. I drop my hands to the table and give in to the need to school this fool. “A Beret reckons himself a charmer,” I explain. “He convinces people like you to blow stuff up while he watches.”
Smith barks out a laugh. “You’re a charmer? Give me a fucking break.”
I lean forward and give him the cobra stare. The one I use right before I kill some asshole. “That’s why I left. I like to do the killing myself. Could be you I decide to kill one day.”
He laughs again and tosses popcorn in my face. “Bring it.”
“And here we have the reason you both just paid me,” Adam says, scooping up the pool of money. “You were both running your mouths and not paying attention.”
“How about I come over there and shut your mouth?” I taunt, refilling my shot glass. “Then we’ll see how Mr. SEAL Team Six does against a mercenary.”
Adam’s lips quirk and he leans forward, too—a big motherfucker, tall and broad, his dark hair a typical curling, wild mess. “We’re all mercenaries now,” he claims. “We work for profit.”
“Not the way I did before I came here, and you know it.” I run a finger down the scar on my cheek. “This only made me more of a bastard.” I down another shot of tequila, feeling the booze when the new waitress heads our direction. She’s a pretty little thing, a brunette who favors the only perfect woman I’ve ever known. A resemblance that might just require the entire bottle of tequila find its way to my belly. As if trying to make sure that’s what happens, she kneels beside me and whispers, “A man who just handed me a hundred-dollar bill to request your presence is in the alleyway.”
The hair on my arms goes all prickly. “Name?”
“Tag.”
Iron Man might as well have punched me in the chest, but I don’t react. “Thanks, sweetheart,” I say. “Enjoy the money. You deserve it just for speaking to the prick.” I reach into my pocket and palm her another hundred. “Go now.”
“Thanks,” she says, scraping her teeth over her bottom lip, an invitation in her eyes that I have no intention of accepting. Anyone who reminds me of her is a no go for me.
The waitress stands up and I don’t watch her depart. I focus on Adam and Smith. “Count me out this hand,” I say, shrugging into the leather jacket at the back of my chair, remarkably sober considering my level of tequila intake.
“Where the hell are you going?” Adam asks, the card deck in hand. “I’m dealing.”
“I’ll return to win my money back in a few,” I say. “You better practice while you can.” I stand up, taking the Glock at my hip right along with the blade hidden inside my waistband for this reunion.
I walk toward the front of the familiar bar, where I’ve hung out hundreds of times in the past three years since I joined Walker Security. This place is my comfort zone, a place to relax, and because I know Tag far more than I wish I knew Tag, that is exactly why he chose it. With long, measured strides, I make my way to the front door, because fuck no, I’m not walking into an un-scouted alleyway with a bastard like Tag. I exit into a bitter November chill that has nothing on a winter I spent in Russia. Adrenaline and agitation pulse through me as I walk to the end of the street and around the corner to enter a narrow walkway side street.
I stop short to find Tag is waiting on me, exactly as I’d expected he would. “Knew you’d take the attack route.”
I step toe-to-toe with the brute of a man I once considered more a father than the bastard of a man I’d called father until I figured out I hated the fuck out of him. He’s older now, cigarettes and years in Afghanistan shriveling up his skin like a damn raisin. “What the hell are you doing here?” My voice is low, taut, a threat he won’t mistake as a greeting.
“Good to see you, too, Savage.”
“Fuck you, Tag. What the hell do you want?”
“I’m in deep shit. I need a tug out.”
“Whatever, man.” I turn to leave.
“You owe me. You know you fucking owe me.”
I stop dead in my tracks, grimacing with those words.
“I’ve never asked for payment. I’m demanding it now.”
I turn to face him. “You don’t demand shit of me, man. Fuck you. Get one of your boys on the payroll. They’re stuck suckling your tit. I’m not.”
“Someone burned me, betrayed me. There’s a hit out on me. I’m going underground until this is over. You’re the one I trust to handle this.”
“Handle this? Define that statement.”
“A job you’ll enjoy, I promise. I need you to hit the man who’s the mastermind.”
Trigger pulled. “I don’t hit,” I say. “Not anymore.” I turn to leave him, and this shit, behind for good.
“I have so many ways to burn you and you know it.”
Acid burns my chest and I stop walking, but I don’t turn and look at his ugly fucking face again.
“I wonder how your past affects the Walkers’ reputation,” he threatens softly and it is a threat.
My hand goes to my gun and I pull the fucking thing, turning to point it at Tag, who is pointing his own weapon at me. Piece of shit. “You don’t think I know you, Savage?” he challenges.
“You won’t kill me. You need me.”
“And you won’t kill me. You don’t want a mess to clean up.” He holsters his weapon. “You owe me.”
“To think I once respected you.” I holster my weapon, aware as he is aware that a debt between mercenaries is a blood oath. The price of betraying that oath is not pleasant. “I don’t do threats,” I say. “I will, however, honor the favor owed. If I have the facts and feel good about the job. The end. My debt will then be paid. And if you come to me after it’s paid, I will shoot you. Start talking.”
“You know how this works. We protect the integrity of the mission. We cut off a leak at the knees. You go where I send you and await instructions.”
He reaches into his jacket and pulls out an envelope that he hands me. “Your mission, should you so choose to take it.” With that, he steps around me.
I rotate to speak to his back. “To think I used to respect you.”
He glances over his shoulder at me. “I don’t give a fuck if you respect me. An oath is an oath.” He disappears around the corner and I stand there, fingers curled in my palms for one reason: if I move, I will kill him. I shove the envelope into my pocket and glance skyward, the dark, starless night a perfect match for my return to that man’s world. I can’t put off reading my instructions and even if I could, this needs to be behind me.
I yank it from my pocket again and open it to remove the white card inside with only one word, one place, the place I swore I’d never return: San Antonio.
“Damn it to hell,” I growl, squeezing my eyes shut, the torment on Candace’s face when I told her I was leaving gutting me in ten different directions.
I ball up the paper, tossing it against the wall.
A movement behind me sets me off and I whirl around, grab the asshole sneaking up on me, and shove him against the wall.
“Holy hell, Savage,” Adam growls. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
“Why the hell are you ghosting me?”
“I know you, man. I knew there was trouble. And I saw who you were talking to. He’s that piece of shit you were working for when we met, beneath you a hundred feet. Whatever he wants, you’re saying no.”
“You don’t make that decision.” I release him and step back, scrubbing my jaw. “I’m off the books for a couple of weeks.” I rotate away from him and exit the alleyway.
I’ve made it three steps when he’s by my side. “San Antonio? You’ve got to be kidding me, man. I know what that place is to you.”
“You don’t know shit.”
“Candace. Your father.”
I stop walking and turn on him. “How do you know about Candace?”
“Vodka, man. I told you to stop drinking it. You forget when you drink vodka.”
“I don’t talk about Candace.”
“Yeah, man. On at least three occasions. Which says a hell of a lot about why you’re single.”
“You’re single, too, you prick.”
“Your point? Never mind. My point—”
“Unless it involves more tequila, I don’t care.” I turn and start walking. He falls into step with me. He’s pissing me off. “Get out of my face, man. I’m a live wire right now, and it has nothing to do with you. Don’t make it about you.”
“Punch me, asshole. Whatever. You go to San Antonio working for that asshole, I go with you.”
I flag down a cab, and when it screeches to the corner, I climb inside. Adam follows. “Airport,” I order.
The driver guns the engine. I open my door and tumble out onto the road, leaving Adam prisoner to speed. I’m on my feet and down a side street, fast-tracking into a subway tunnel before he can recover. Once I’m on a train, it’s done. Adam is out of the picture. I just saved him from putting himself on Tag’s radar. The way I tried to save Candace from me. And yet, here I am, on my way to San Antonio, and if Tag even thinks about involving her in this, I won’t just kill that little prick. I’ll make him suffer.
SAVAGE AND CANDACE: THE PAST, THE BEGINNING
CHAPTER TWO
Candace
Ten years ago—San Antonio, Texas
The rain cloaks the roadway, an unyielding curtain blinding my vision. This was not what I had in mind when I left my empty little cottage in Alamo Heights to head to my favorite late-night study spot. I wanted to snap out of my blurry-eyed haze and just finish the design work I’m doing for my internship, not die when my car careens into the ditch. I’m blessed to have acclaimed architect Wesley Miller mentor me, and I’m determined to prove it has nothing to do with his brother working underneath my father’s military command. I’m going to earn this. I’m going to make my parents, and myself, proud of my work.
I just—I can’t be home right now without thinking about my mom. Not when my home was inherited from my grandmother two years ago, and now my mom is gone, too. And of course, my father deploys to Iraq next week. I just need noise around me, anything that keeps me focused on it and my studies.
Thankfully, my destination, a place called Halcyon, where coffee and spirits are available until two AM, is a mere one block down. I hope. I think. It’s hard to tell right now. Peering through the darkness, I cruise by the driveway and make a quick turn into the parking lot. Thunder erupts overhead, jolting me, but I remain focused on my goal: parking and just getting into the warm, dry building. Considering the sea of cars present, all of which are all but floating, I’m shocked to eye a few open spots near the door.
Luckily, I whip into the great spot and kill the engine. I glance at the clock and eye the ten o’clock hour. I have four hours to caffeinate and stuff my face with a piece of chocolate ganache cake. I deserve it for surviving this past month. I won’t sleep much if I stay until closing, but I wouldn’t sleep anyway. A man rushes from the front door of the coffee bar and hurries to the vehicle next to me, wasting no time speeding away. Considering the rain has now become a monsoon, that works for me. I grab my umbrella and shove the door open wide, giving myself room to open it, grab my briefcase, that doubles as a purse, and step out into the storm.
In a rush of shutting the door of my Ford Focus and locking up, I finally step inside the warehouse-style operation, with high ceilings and two levels. I set my umbrella by the door and maneuver through the clusters of wood and steel chairs, with random cushy chairs here and there as well. I place my order, scanning to find one spot, one last table by a window where I can keep an eye on the storm. Claiming the small table, I reach in my bag for my drafting pad and grimace. It’s not here. Please tell me it’s in the car. I grab my wallet and stuff it in my pocket, along with my keys, leaving my bag to hold the table.
Hurrying back outside, I’m relieved to find the rain has slowed to a light drizzle, though I don’t trust that it will last. I pull up my hood, rushing outside to watch an SUV park so close that I can’t even get into my car. The asshole opens his door and I’ve had my limit. I charge toward him and by the time he’s standing I’m on his side of his door with him.
I don’t even care that he’s taller than any man I’ve ever actually stood this close to and as broad as the doorway. I’m pissed. I’m hurt. I need an outlet and he just made himself that outlet. “What are you doing?” I demand.
He yanks down his hood, displaying a handsome, sculpted face, with dark hair mussed up in that “finger fucked by some gorgeous woman” kind of way.
“Staring at a pretty lady, it seems,” he says, his voice a low, whiskey-roughened rasp, and yet somehow as deep and big as the man.
I ignore the compliment and the purr of my body, a reaction that I attribute, not to his degree of hotness, which is scorching, but to my lack of male companionship in far too long. “I can’t get into my car. You parked on top of me.”
“You parked over the line and I didn’t want to get my pretty little head all wet.”
“I didn’t park over the line.”
“You did,” he assures me. “Go look.” He motions toward my car. “I’ll wait here.”
“I’m not going to look. You have to move. I can’t open my door.”
He crosses his arms over his impressively broad chest and peers at me from under dark, intense brows. “What are you going to give me if I do?”
“How about I save your manhood from my knee?”
He laughs, a masculine rough laugh that may as well be bedroom talk for the way my nipples respond. Good Lord, what is wrong with me? I don’t know this man. I do not want to know this man. My nipples do not get to know this man. “How about,” his gaze lowers to my mouth, lingers there and lifts, “you have coffee,” he pauses for effect, “with me.”
My stomach does a little flutter that I shove away, replacing it with a far more appropriate response: disbelief. “Are you seriously bribing me for entry into my own vehicle?”
Thunder roars above us and the rain begins to plummet down again. To my shock, he catches my hand and suddenly I’m pressed to his hard body, his hands on my waist. My senses blaze in a wildfire of reactions, and just that quickly, he’s lifted me into his vehicle, out of the rain. Instinct has me scooting to the passenger door, which is of course, right on top of my car door. I couldn’t escape if I wanted to, and suddenly, he’s inside the cabin with me, shutting the door.
CHAPTER THREE
Candace
“What are you doing?” I demand indignantly, my heart beating like a hammer in my chest. “You can’t grab me and throw me in your vehicle.”
He turns to face me, the small cabin made smaller by the massive size of this man. He’s just so big and close, so very close and I can smell his cologne, something woodsy with a hint of amber. My senses are on fire. Wild fire. I can’t think straight. “I was saving you, woman,” he replies. “It’s a mad downpour out there. But if you want me to let you out, I will.”
Thunder crashes again and I jump, eyes squeezing shut a moment, then lifting to find him staring at me. “Well?” he challenges softly.
Well indeed, I think. How did I end up in a vehicle, in a storm with the hottest man I’ve ever seen?
“You’re still an asshole.”
“Does that mean the fair maiden wishes to remain in the shelter of my fine vehicle?”
“I should be afraid of you right now.”
He arches one of those dark brows again. Why do I think his brows are sexy? Brows are not sexy. “Are you?” he challenges.
I blink. “Am I what?”
“Afraid of me,” he supplies.
Oh, that. His brows distracted me. “I should be,” I repeat.
“Why are you out at this time of night alone?”
“Why are you?” I clap back.
“Why not? Who do you think a bad guy would attack? You or me?”
“Depends on which one of us has the biggest gun.”
He laughs that hell of a sexy laugh again that my nipples still find a bit too sexy. “Do you carry?” he asks.
“Yes. And I know how to use it,” I add, because I do. Of course, my gun is not present on my person, but I don’t point that out.
“You’re a fierce one,” he comments.
“You’re an arrogant one,” I say in rebuttal.
“I’m not arrogant,” he says, his energy darkening, his mood a swift, stormy shift. “A smart-ass, yes. Arrogant, no.”
“Parking too close to me wasn’t you being arrogant? Just a smart-ass?”
“Yep.” He grins in my direction, his mood drastically altered. “How’d I do?”
“Perfectly.”
“Glad to hear it,” he says. “I’m Rick Savage, by the way, but most people call me Savage.”
“They call you Savage? Are you supposed to be making me feel better?”
“Savage can have many meanings, sweetheart,” he murmurs, his voice low, suggestive, and the obvious insinuation that he’s a savage in bed has my cheeks heating.
He chuckles. “Shy, are you?”
“I’m—not actually. Not really.”
“You did come at me like a freight train, I’ll give you that. Call me Rick.” He offers me his hand, a strong hand that I’m now imagining on my body again, but this time in the most savage of ways. God. I don’t know this man and I’m fantasizing about him.
I steel myself for the impact of touching him and press my palm to his. Heat rushes up my arm and my gaze shoots to his. “Candace Marks,” I say softly, but when I try to pull back, he holds onto my hand.
“Nice to meet you, Candace,” he says softly, his eyes warm on my hot cheeks.
“I’m not sure if it’s nice to meet you or not yet, Rick.”
His lips curve and I find myself thinking about that kiss, about his mouth on my mouth. I tug at my hand and reluctantly, it seems, he releases me, or perhaps it’s me who didn’t really want him to actually let go. Until now, until this night and my encounter with Rick Savage, I didn’t realize how much I just need to be touched. Afraid I’m transparently desperate, I turn away from him, watching as rain transforms to hail plunking on the window. “What brings you here so late and in a storm?” he asks.
I shift to face him again, happy to be back on safe territory. “School and work.”
“What are you studying and/or working on?”
“Architecture. I’m interning right now under a rather famous architect. It’s a bit intimidating, but exciting.”
“Interesting choice of career. What do you want to build?”
“Everything. I have so many dreams. The tallest building in the world that reaches well into the clouds. The most unique building in the world. The most secure building in the world. The most impressive homes on planet Earth.”
“That’s what I call passion. Are you following in someone’s footsteps?”
“No. I think it started with a fascination with the pyramids and morphed into architecture. What about you? Why are you here late at night?”
“Med school. I’m a surgical resident at Fort Sam where my father’s an instructor.”
“Impressive. It is, after all, considered the most important military medical training facility in the world. My father’s at Fort Sam, too, but he’s not part of the medical division. He’s the commander for the North. Are you military?”
“I am, in fact, military.”
“Our fathers might know each other.”
He gives a nod. “I’m certain they must.”
“I thought soldiers were pack animals and yet you’re here, alone. It’s dangerous out alone, you know,” I tease.
He doesn’t laugh. He cuts his stare and grabs the steering wheel, his powerful forearm flexing with the tightness of his grip. “Sometimes alone isn’t the best place to be.” He looks at me, his eyes swimming with something I can only call dark and damaged before he asks, “Now is it?”
I don’t know if he intends for me to actually answer that question, but I do. “No,” I say. “No, it’s not.” And then before I can stop myself, I add, “Especially not tonight.” A confession, perhaps inspired by the hint of understanding between us that I believe he’s trying to confirm.
“Why not tonight?” he asks.
“You don’t know me. You don’t need to pretend to care.”
“I don’t pretend. Ever. And as for barely knowing each other, we are the freest we will ever be together. You don’t have to choose to see me again. You don’t have to think about the mistakes we’ve made together. You don’t have to do anything, including answering my question.” And yet he asks again, “Why not tonight?” he repeats.
I exhale a shaky breath, my fingers twisting in my lap, my gaze shifting forward to the window drizzled with rain. The storm outside has calmed, but the one inside me has not. “My mom died last month. My dad is deploying to Iraq next week.” I glance over at Rick. “If that’s not enough, I live in a house I inherited from my dead grandmother who I loved very much.”
“Do you have a boyfriend, Candace?”
“No. I mean, I did, but it wasn’t serious. He was military and a little too busy trying to impress my father for me to feel like anything was about me. What about you?”
“No one.”
No one.
There is something hollow in the way he says this that only drives me to want to know more. Turning his prior question, back on him, I ask, “Why are you here alone, Rick Savage?”
He fixes me in a deep blue stare, and I swear I’m drifting in a sea of this man’s making. “To meet you. I just didn’t know it yet.”
The rain explodes around us again, an eternal roughening of the windows that only Texas does with such force. Thunder erupts with it, lightning in the distance, and I don’t know who moves first. Him or me. Suddenly though we’re in the middle of the seat and his fingers are tangling all rough and wonderfully in my hair, his mouth lowering to mine. “I’m going to kiss you now, unless you object,” he says.
“Kiss me already, Savage.”
“Rick. Call me Rick.” And then his lips collide with my lips, his tongue a deep stroke of pure heat that has me moaning with the rush of sensation that assaults my body in the best of ways.
My arms slide around his muscular back, body pressing against his body, the hard lines of this incredible man absorbing more than the softer part of me. That need to be touched explodes inside me, demanding satisfaction. He pulls back and stares down at me. “Do you want to get out of here? Together?”
I tell myself this is crazy, insane, wildly out of my character. “I don’t do things like this. Ever.”
He kisses me again and leaves me breathless. “Then make me the first.”